Had an okay day today.. act, it would have been a great day.. except for this thing.. that i juz can't stand anymore.. candy n me act said that we would join cc rena n their friends for the new yr countdown.. n candy was t first one to sae okay.. so i went along.. den the dae b4, candy wanted to pull out already.. cos she said that it would be weird as we didn't know cc n rena's friends.. but i persuaded her to go.. den on that day, she was having 2nd thoughts again.. cos she didn't wan to go clubbing after e countdown with them.. n she had pang sehed her friends to join us.. den i was thinking.. u have already told us u are joining us like 3 days before that day.. so u should have told ur friends that u won't be able to join them wad.. if u had already made plans with ur friends u shouldn't have agreed to join us right? i mean, that's common sense wad.. she should juz go check e dictionary for e meaning of promises.. n she didn't even have e courtesy of telling me that she wasn't gg anymore.. only when i met up with rena n cc that i found out from them that she wasn't gg anymore.. The reason i was going to countdown with cc rena and their friends was because candy was gg.. Did she think that i would be comfortable with a grp of strangers? stms i juz cannot figure ot wad she's thinking.. if she thot that she wouldn't feel comfortable there even when there's e both of us there.. what made her think that I would feel good? She should put herself into my shoes n think abt how i feel when she breaks her promises time n again.. Mayb i shld try asking her out n than telling her that i cannot make it at e last minute.. That would be exactly what she deserves.. cos this isn't the first time this has happened.. It isn't even the tenth.. I think even if i add up all my fingers n toes n borrow sb else's.. it wouldn't be enough.. It's not that i'm petty or wadeva.. but can u imagine being let down at e last min each time u've already prepared to go out? The most ridiculous time was when we were supposed to go to Sentosa.. It was the same last time when we were gg out with the vball girls n itz the same now.. i think she doesn't really think that she is doing sth wrong.. She always put these things behind her easily.. like the outing to sentosa the last time.. she could ask me innocently on Wed whether we had fun last Sun.. I really didn't know if i shld laf or cry.. Den last Sat, on New Year's Day.. she n flo called me to go down to Orchard to have dinner with them.. Why? because boon heng n the guys wanted to meet them for dinner n they didn't wan to meet e guys with 2 girls only.. After i rejected flo.. candy came to e line.. n asked me if i had fun on new year's eve.. when flo told me that candy wanted to tok to me.. i already had a feeling that she wanted to tok abt e countdown.. so i was a bit buay song when i toked to me.. i don't know if she could hear my buay songness.. but i kept my answers short.. n juz quckly hung up.. Act, the reason y i didn't want to go down to meet them was cos it was already 5 in e evening.. n i didn't want to go home too late.. den after i hung up.. i started to think.. y do they always only come to me when they need help? The both of u went out together without asking me or anybody else along.. it is quite apparent that u didn't want me or anybody else there.. then when u wanted help, u called me.. n expected me to put aside everything n rush down to ur aid.. Am i that pathetic in ur eyes? You know, ppl say that e one u look for help when u're in trouble is the one u look upon as ur true friend or wadeva.. but i really, seriously don't feel like one! And i don't think i want to become one.. U think it's fun having to accomodate her schedule? And u know how stms u put an entry in ur blog abt ur fustrations but u hope certain ppl wont see it, esp e person u're angry at? Well, i hope Candy reads this entry.. Because i don't know how much longer i can stand it.. I don't want to forgive n forget anymore.. N i don't want to meet her at her whims anymore.. And this applies to the cls outings!

Okay, enough abt the bad parts.. abt the day itself now.. was supposed to go ktv with jolleen n yijun.. but that jolleen had sth on that day.. her friend's bdae.. so had to cancel.. went out with laykuan n liz instead.. den while wating for laykuan saw alvin n jiahui n e way to tm.. jiahui wanted to treat alvin.. cos they were getting their ERS.. den jiahui said he'll treat me liz n laykuan too.. hahaha.. act i think jiahui agreed only bcos liz was there.. haha.. den that laykuan arh.. we waited such a long time for her lor.. she said she'll end her cls at 12.. in e end we waited for her for an hr.. she ended at 1.. anyway, after she came we went to tm.. den went to e genki sushi to eat.. n jiahui limited us to e $2.80 plate.. haha.. den ate lor.. n toked.. den after that went to play pool.. or at least i went to watch them play pool.. haha.. den talked quite a bit with alvin.. act wanted to watch movie.. but there wasn't enuf time.. so walked ard tm.. bought a triumph bra.. 13 bucks only.. haha.. den went to city hall to meet cc they all.. but then they said it was still early.. so asked me to go PS to meet them.. so met them at e arcade there.. den waited while rena's friends played n ate.. den went down to e esplanade.. had a v unenthu countdown.. haha.. den we went to clarke quay.. bought a bottle of spray each.. then we sprayed at each other.. haha.. then some guys went pass us.. den sprayed e snow thing at us.. but we ran out of spray already.. so bought new ones.. haha.. n sprayed them back.. it was really crazy lor.. cos eb was like spraying eb.. haha.. then saw lang yuan n his friends.. don't know them.. but juz sprayed them.. haha.. den rena's friends came to meet us.. n they were clean! so we started spraying them.. haha.. den we bought new bottles.. then walked towards club X.. den saw langyuan n his friends again.. so we started spraying each other again.. chase them somemore.. haha.. i think e best position was to stand by e sides n juz spray those ppl who were walking past.. haha.. anyway, when we reached club X, it was so damned crowded lor.. n we had to pay entrance fee of 25 bucks.. which is like totally wiping out my wallet.. den cos had to wait for a table.. so we stood by e streets first.. den some of rena's friends didn't want to go in.. so had to discuss lor.. den in e end me n cc went home first.. cos i didn't want to go chiong in e first place.. n cc wasn't feeling well.. so...... e both of us shared a cab home lor.. reached home at abt 2.. bathed.. den went to slp.. haha..the day was quite fun lah.. if u didn't count wad happened with candy n me feeling weird with rena n cc's friends.. there's this guy.. he v qi2 guai4 one leh.. haha.. den he kept teasing cc.. n of cos got scolded by cc lah.. haha.. got scolded by rena also.. there are only 2 words to describe him.. qi2 guai4..